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the 4 types of hearts when receiving the Word of God.

Did you know that in Matt 13 there are 4 types of hearts whenever the Word of God is preached?

Starting with verse 3, Jesus begins a parable of a sower (someone who plants seeds for a crop harvest) beginning to sow seeds. In verse 4 it begins to show what happens to all those seeds. The first case is that some of the seeds fall beside the road and birds came to devour them. In the second case, some of the seeds fell on the rocky places which, because there was no soil for the seed to take root in, when the sun came out to shine, it ended up scorching the seed so that it withers instead of grows.
The third fell into thorns and the thorns came up and choked the seed.
And lastly, the seeds that fall into the good earth yields fruit of a hundredfold, sixty-fold, and a thirty-fold.

So a parable (i looked this up) is defined as:
a short allegorical story designed to illustrate or teach some truth, religious principle, or moral lesson.
a statement or comment that conveys a meaning indirectly by the use of comparison, analogy, or the like.

and so in this parable, the sower is Jesus. The seeds are the Word of the kingdom. which is another way of saying the Word of God.
The first type of ground that the seed lands on is beside the road. In verse 19 the Lord says “when anyone hears the word of the kingdom and does not understand, the evil one comes and snatches away that which has been sown in his heart. This is the one sown beside the way. In the translation which I read from (you can get a free copy of it here! There is a portion in a footnote in verse 4 saying “beside the way refers to a place close to the way. It is hardened by the traffic of the way; thus, it is difficult for the seeds to penetrate it. The wayside signifies the heart that is hardened by worldly traffic and cannot open to understand, to comprehend, the word of the kingdom” How clear and simple this is. and how much more I realize prayer is so necessary when going out to preach the gospel. when we pray, the Spirit broods over the each one preparing the way for that person to receive.
The second part of this verse talks about the birds that come and devour the seeds that fall beside the road as well. The birds signify the enemy,( the evil one, Satan, all of these are the same person), who’s existance would be cut shorter with each one receiving the gospel and so, does all that he can to keep ones from hearing the truth and goes even further to try take away everything the person has heard.

Just a quick note: I remember when I use to hear/read about people personifying Satan in this way, I always thought it was very silly. Lots because growing up, I see a lot of cartoon personifications. But it is definitely in my experience that there is an adversary in the world that is completely against you when you are really trying to pursue God, in the way of little distractions when you’re trying to read the Word or ministry, the EXTREME anxiety you feel when you want to speak to someone about the gospel, or just a general feeling of lagging lethargy when you know it is time to go to a meeting. He may not sit on my shoulder whispering to do other things, but he is nonetheless very real.

Ok, so this is much longer than I had originally hoped…so this will be: to be continued for now.

Maybe too much in my mind

Today we watched the 3rd msg of the thanksgiving conference. It was talking about Rom. 8 being the center of the universe and G’s economy and how we need to be those who live by Rom. 8, living by the law of the Spirit of life. That by setting our minds on the spirit over and over and over again, it becomes our habit and eventually it becomes part of our character and then ultimately it becomes our living. It is through this individual going on that we can have Rom. 12 which is the corporate aspect of  the Body and the Bride which is just God expressed on this earth. It was an awesome message. there were so many points that I couldn’t even think to write them all here by memory.

1 thing tho was that there was a bit about how to live by setting the mind on the spirit; that each of us has the “electricity” installed in our spirit when we receive Christ into us. but that we need to “switch on” the flow of power. We can do this by calling on His name. By worshiping Him, by praising Him, this is our pushing the button to turn on the flow. but many times after a meeting or our scheduled times with the Lord, we take our finger off and so stop the flow of power/electricity. Which as I considered, this is how my life has been as well. If/When I have MR. It is usually in a way that I am turning to my spirit bc I already know/seen/experienced how crucial it is to start my day with the Lord. But there are many times that I feel rushed (have things to get done, etc) and I go thru the MR/bible reading/ministry reading in a way that isn’t taking my time to muse on the words there.. isn’t this my “removing my finger from the “on” button? A Yu said that it is not about “am I living by the spirit” but more “am I living by my flesh?” flesh is more than just the doing sinful things although it is included, it has more to do with EVERYTHING not according to our spirit.

I am utterly spinning myself in circles. All I know is that I do not always joyful in my salvation. I am quite honestly re-introducing myself to my soul, and it never ends. The things that I would like to do, albeit not sinful, are not according to my spirit. I think it has to do with how busy both of us are and my being more chummy with my soul.



New Beginnings

So, I am finally putting my old LJ account to rest and beginning a new blog bc…well…there are a lot of things that have changed since I started my blog in high school and this hopefully will be a nice new start for me.

I normally like to write in a book/journal/diary…but after the fire of my house during the honeymoon, I feel that if possible, especially if there is a question on my mind rather than just sth particular that happened, then this would be a better venue for it than in the book that most likely others will never see. 😛 That being said, there will still probably be many private posts anyway.

Something about me: I love having pets but bc we are living in grad student housing on the University of Michigan campus at this time, we cannot have any. I think it has to do with me not being able to shower my love on a living creature; Anthony is usually too busy studying to reciprocate when I am available and I am usually in the middle of something when he is free.. so just having someone there to be there to absorb all the excess energy/love that I have is pretty important to me and I am becoming more and more strange without this outlet that I need.

This is Baby. She was the one who put up with all of my loving.

Very happy couple we are! This is after Anthony asked me to marry him and now we are!

Another post to come!