upset at A for nothing important and what do i do? i go online to purposefully waste time bc somehow in my itty bitty brain, it will “hurt him” somehow. i really am quite stupid. 😦 maybe it was also to use up the battery so that he cannot use the big tv. 😛 whatever. jealous of other’s good fortune, depressed over the recent events of my life not going the way i want. and just starting to come back to the Lord a little bit more…but not fast enough. 😦 living here is not what i had hoped. x( blargh!